Saturday, March 09, 2013

Well..




[..I said to Barbara, I said]





I’m writing my book, making my costumes and playing me

I think I am rather good
remembering all those lines that could
have once made a difference
when sunsets felt real,
 beyond their damaged magnetic fields
I sang, I danced, I concurred
and when my sword bent from my knees
 and I couldn’t cry anymore
I walked on burning coal through the icy rain
to embrace the forgotten

I keep on writing my book

I pierce my ears, die my hair, conjure the dark forces
and anchored by fear I deliver
touching, exhilarating, borderline shocking
live entertainment
half brave, half pushed
sometimes merely there
I remember the lights,
blinding they are, hallowing they are

I keep on wearing my costumes

children rush to me like lambs to their mother-sheep
and their smiles, joy and clapping
are worth a whole sun and one bright half of a Moon
we lick ice-cream together,
 get colds together
make sticker-charts together and
sit on the naughty step together
and after dark - and only after dark – we pray to not have to pray again

shh!

keep reading
turn the page to the scene
 with the guy who locked the rare wounded dove in a cage
and the woman who loved too much, laughed too much, wore too much lipstick
and her depressed chiwawa
and keep playing me
 Sunday to Sunday

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Carpe Diem




tu

genunchiul fără frică  pus pe acest pat

cînd pereții ard de jur împrejur

palma din gheață sculptată după fruntea și imaginea mea

tu știi cine sînt?

unde mergem și cît putem îndura?



degeaba închid  radioul, fereastra și mă ascund după ficus

ești respirația gură la gură dintre pastilă și bubă

prima și ultima rază alunecate după perdea

cu buze uscate  repet în urechea de plastic a telefonului

aici, apasă aici, dă drumul garoului

sîngele promis vieții, să curgă



brațele tale labirint știu sa țină piept inimii

știu să țină inima la piept

sînt gata.

am pus creionul jos

și termometrul și hîrtia și apa

poemul acesta se învîrte

eu amețesc și tu rîzi



Friday, February 08, 2013

The *NHS Song


There’s a wheeze when I breath and this pain when I live
And no wonder our paths come to cross
You’re my Heaven my Hell within you I dwell
Each time my health is at loss
You’re pretty and sweet when we meet and we greet
But your chit chat’s a ‘NO-NO’ because
I am loosing terrain you drive me insane
And I don't know the name of your boss

Your  system has crashed your words come out mashed
My story – I say it again
But you’re now on the phone while I play my trombone
and my patience’s being washed down the drain

My lips turning pale you’re biting your nail
I just need my prescription, I’m sore
You smile with a smile, I repeat for a while
Everything that I told you before
You click and you stare at the screen I don’t dare
To look for the fear that you’re wrong
I can not buy time even for this crime
But tonight (oh, boy, this is so worth breaking a rhyme)  you’ll be blown on my blog

There’s a fire alarm and you say with a charm
'Please leave the premesis now'
I’ll be damned if I go, all I need is to know
Are you stupid or simply a cow
We part and I leave you wave and I grieve
For they won’t let me kill on the spot
And all I can do is wait a day or two
‘Till Tuesday is better' you thought


~

This saga was mine, I bet my last dime
That the papers will take them to pieces
The name of the story, for such fame and and such glory:

NHS – Hope is for sissies


NHS = National Health Service

Note: This poem is based on a true story and is aiming to reveal the impotence of a failing system. 

Monday, February 04, 2013

Control Panel. Test 01


Statement 1.The poem bellow is false


there’s no rush in pushing dreams
one into another and watch them disappear into black holes
like shiny balls on a Saturday night pool table
no need for hope and fear
to marry again and again and again
lovers can only be parents to one eternal daughter: agony

open your eye
the voices in my head are now quiet
muted by the glowing in the dark yoyo of life
forever ends Tuesday and
 it doesn’t matter why
or how or who played in it

the Big Engineer wants us to be grateful
for every dove flying above our heads
for every loaf of bread sliced on the kitchen table
for every mouthful of air allowed in this room

‘Breath in and hold’/ (should I do what I’m told?)
I take in you2 and exhale love dioxide.


Statement 2.The poem above is true



Audio version:   Control panel. Test 01 by Corina Gina Papouis 



~

Friday, January 04, 2013

din jurnalele Diotimei





voi face o listă cu trei lucruri
şi o voi pune după ureche
mă voi tolăni pe sofa
şi voi mîngîia catifea mov, genunchi de bărbat
şi ciucuri grei

voi ieşi pe alei
trăgînd norii de lesă. din priviri
voi clădi un turn înalt
îmi voi împleti părul în funii iar
noaptea voi evada

voi ajunge la timp pe un ţărm oarecare
unde voi oferi unui pescăruş oarecare
ultimul cartof prăjit
voi coborî din tancul blindat cu păpădii
şi voi săruta cu sete buzele urîţilor

voi rearanja ţările pe hartă în formă de război şi pace,
valurile oceanelor, cărţile pe raft
şi alibiurile celor ce adoră şi tac
voi alăpta copiii făcuţi din dragoste
din cenuşă, apă şi talaj voi ridica livezi de cuvinte

cu stînga voi mînca
un măr roşu
iar cu dreapta voi scrie în jurnal
ceva ce n-o să-ţi vină să crezi

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Twenty Thirteen



"..there's nothing in the desert and no man needs nothing" - Prometheus




Captain's log. Stardate: now.

Mission 1-9-692-012 accomplished.

The crew is alive. Vital signs - stable, although many seem to be infected with joy which impacts temporarily on their frail alter-ego.

We have come to believe that time is a main factor in depleting reality of its purpose which remains unknown. Consequences unknown.

Some may suffer acute neurosynaptic damage caused by what we call disappointment. Others may seek strength to look into their hearts without a blink or choose to live in ignorance.
Most should retain the element of hope through prayer/ poetry/ alcohol and/or chocolate.

Our belief systems are unstable but in a few hours we shall rendezvous with Fate. The complexity of data can not be decoded with available primers.  The possibility of Love beginning with the same letter remains remarkably high. This may destabilize the core, cause day-dreaming and impair judgement  No one on board is safe and probability of escape is zero. Survival rate: unknown.

All engineers/ navigators / counsellors/ scientists/ muses and poets on standby.

Countdown on my mark.

Our new mission ahead:  KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON.......or I shall ride you like a cowboy.





Monday, December 24, 2012

The ultimate noise of Christmas


'So, there's uncle Bill, Jenny, Victoria, Tony, their kids..and...'


'don't be stupid, he'll never wear that, he hates brown'/
his car is brown and I thought...'


'oh, aren't they lovely!!!! they are.. let's get 5'


                ~'last Christmas I gave you my heart..'~


'..listen.. stop calling me! you made it very clear that...aha...yeah I know but...aha..you should have never ...'


'This is a customer announcement: Sainsbury's would like to wish all customers a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year'


'Get some Tums for Mum she's always sick after Christmas lunch'


'..the ones with the dots?..or the stripy ones?'


'Gill! Gill it's me! Hi darling are you bringing your chiwawas this year? you are.......what do they eat?'


'No, you backed into me,  you dickhead, look at the fucking bumper'


'...and then he said he loved me and he'll stay in touch..'


'If you think I'll sit next to your sister you are so wrong: she talks with her mouth full and never listens to a word I say..she's a eating machine'


'after eights? ferrero rocher or thorntons specials? hello?? hellooo?? you're breaking up..'


                 ~ 'have yourself a merry little Christmas..'~

'can't man..I'm skint..'


'I always wanted that jacket but not in blue..i prefer the ox-blood../ yeah, ox-blood suits you..'


'beep-beep-beep-beep-beep-beep-beep-beep-beep-beep'


'this is a customer announcement: we would like to apologise for the queues and thank all our customers for their patience, we are now operating at full capacity: check out 13, 14 and 15 are now open'


'mummy that man farted'

'do you have the fluffy slippers in black with pink ribbon..no, not the ones with the bow on the top..'


'oh, shut up, you haven't got a clue..'


                ~'jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way'~


'..did you see that cow on isle 7? the one in a red jumper..she put in her trolley a dozen boxes of mince pies..'


'we'll get goose this year/
 I hate goose/
we'll get goose and you'll love it..'


'that would be 375 pounds and 66 pence'


'Jesus Christ'


'..you have reached the end of your conveyor. please mind your ..'

Sunday, December 16, 2012

As she goes




the coffee will taste the same
the blue chair she sat in
will stay blue
her PC screen – darkened for a while
her pictures – gone
people will chit chat in lower voices about the same things
money/hair/kids/grit/turkeys
the delivery boy will bring the mail
at 11:00 AM sharp
babies will cry until their mothers will feed them
mothers will moan until their babies turn will come
some managers will keep planning targets
some employees will keep ignoring them
some will loose a key from their drawers
some will get their overtime back
but some will remember
there will be one less from now on
one less knock at the door
one less greeting in the morning
one less coat hanging upstairs
one less email to respond to
we shall carry on
smiling
staring at the new elephant in the room
silently called
MISSING


..to Gunsel

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Millionaire

Millionaire ..This has happened a while ago, however, it is an ageless moment and I want to share it with you.

 Location: Gunsel's place
 Poem: Millionaire by Charles Bukowski
 Music: Goldberg Variations by Bach
 Mood: very very poetic..:p

 Enjoy!

Friday, October 19, 2012

deja vu




 *                                                                                                   așa, legată la ochi, cum ești

cineva te va lua de mînă
îți va deschide ușa iar obrajii tăi vor recunoaște
aerul moale ce trece peste ei cu o sfială familiară
podeaua va scîrțîi în același loc

  *                                                                                                                              vei surîde

vei mîngîia ficusul acum mai înalt
cu același gest
apoi vei urma coridorul
îți vei aminti cît de lung este
și cît de întunecat

*                                                                                                  precum sub eșarfa mov ochii

inima îți va bate același bu-bum bu-bum
vei întoarce capul din instinct spre stînga
acolo era [este?] un tablou cu maci
vei pipăi cu degetele gaura peretelui din dreapta
unde ciocanul a mușcat din zid

*                                                                   nu te-ai priceput niciodată să lovești cum trebuie

unu
doi
trei
apoi urmează pasul cel mare

*                                                                             peste pragul de care te-ai împiedicat mereu

te vei opri
cineva îți va da drumul la mînă
îți va scoate eșarfa
dar tu vei știi ce este în fața ta

*                   este  același dulap cu umerașe goale care încă se bălăngăne în miros de lavandă

și nu vei deschide ochii